Though I was terrified as the brutal storm slammed the
land, I found shelter through many things,
A likeness of Ganesha, a small piece of jade, candles on
the mantle, a small battery powered radio and The hiss of AM, and me pacing in
circles and talking to God,
I proclaimed my appreciation for the many things of the
world, the cracked corporate conspiracies,
The hearts of secretive politicians, all the systems how
perfectly intertwined, the laws of nature
As expressed through a furious deluge, everything in sync
and acknowledged as I walked and spoke Aloud, grasping the perfection of the
world as if it were my last day.
I watched the storm from different vantages, from the
window in the living room,
Where outside the rain seemed less like water than sheets
of ice slanting onto the asphalt,
Where the wind roared as it bent and snapped tree limbs
and trunks throughout the neighborhood.
I stood in the screened-in back porch and gazed at the
huge sycamore that stood in the middle
Of the yard. I
watched the planks of the wooden fence shudder under the force of wind,
Certain that at any moment they would dislodge and seek
the façade of the house
Like spears chucked by an angry storm as she displayed
her power and her fury.
I held the piece of jade tightly in my fist, seeking the
symbolic protective force of a stone,
Rubbing it with my thumb as I continued my conversation
with eternity.
I studied the picture of Ganesha with his blue elephant
head and regal robes, his broken tusk that
He had hurled at the moon along with the curse of
darkness until he was convinced
To restore the light to the celestial sphere. I meditated about breathing and attempted
Zazen
While the crash of objects being forced into direction
and movement echoed through the room.
I napped briefly on the couch to conserve my strength and
when I awoke,
I was surprised by the flickering candles’ reflections on
the surface of water
That had begun to fill the house as I had slept. Disoriented, when I touched what I imagined
A dream, the ripples extended to the corners of the room
and the candlelight distorted.
I gathered my things, recent journals, a wallet with
identification and money,
The hard drive I had removed from my computer, upon which
was recorded my recent efforts
At writing a novel, extra clothing, a compact pillow, and
a quilt
My conversation melted into silence as I clicked on the
black flashlight, found my way
To the attic over the garage, and cowered in fear as the
haunting tornadoes sounded
Through the distance. I wrote in my journal by
candlelight and sipped from a pint of bourbon,
I noted the sounds, described the way I tripped over a
fallen tree limb as I maneuvered
Through the flooded yard, how my clothing was drenched,
how the coldness seemed
To wrap around me more out of solace than out of
disdain. When I had exhausted my
strength,
I blew out the candles and slipped into the realm of
dreams.
I slept until the storm abated, and climbed down from my
sanctuary.
Outside, the night sky opened up and stars thickly filled
the distance as if they had all
Been constructed by one sliver of light and
interconnected. I surveyed the yard, the
flood water
Three feet high and filled with toxicity. I looked at the small crepe myrtle bush,
On whose flexible limb I had secured a bright red
hummingbird feeder using a small wire tie.
In awe, I noticed it still hung, though scarcely secured
against something like a storm,
And it became another symbol that had protected me
From the terror of a life threatening storm, and the
possibilities of unwise decisions.
I had been spared through a process of gratitude,
superstition, and reverence
As I waded into the neighborhood, certain I was alive.